I'm having a baby!!!

It's been a while since I last posted a message. I'm happy to say that I'm currently 14 weeks pregnant. I've told my family, some friends and a few co-workers, but not too many people. What am I waiting for? I'm not really sure. My next appt is scheduled for May 21st and my ultrasound is for June 11th. I guess I'm waiting to for the ultrasound. Most of my family is hoping for girl. I can't really say that I hoping for a girl, but it would nice to have a boy and a girl. I really just want a healthy baby with all it's toes and fingers and overall healthy. Noah insists on calling the baby his sister. I've told him it's up to God to send us a boy or a girl. He says he will love his brother or sister. I think right now he is going through a baby stage. He just wants to be with mama. I'll report back in a bit. I'm hungry and I'm going to heat up my spaghetti.

Life

I just found out my cousin has cancer. He is 29 years old and the doctors gave him 2-3 years to live. I couldn't believe it. He is so young and has so much to life for. I haven't seen him or talked to him. What do you say? I don't know.

I have an ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow. If all is well then it's the IUI. I told my husband yesterday that I keep having dreams about the medicine I'm taking, weird dreams. I have told myself that the IUI's are not going to work. My husband asked why and I told him I don't want to get my hopes up. He said to let go of those emotions, but it's hard.

On a happier note, Valentines day is a week away. I asked Noah what he was going to get me and he said flowers. We went to Lucky's a few days later and he showed me the flowers he was going to get me. It's the first Valentines day he is going to buy me something. We've decided to go to Cheesecake Factory then Pier 39. Hopefully it's not to cold.